Hello, one and all. I know its been quite a while since I updated this thing, mainly because I'm hardly on here anymore.

I apologize to everyone for not having updated my gallery in a long time, and I honestly have nothing to show for it. Here's why.

After I took my Figure Drawing course almost a year ago, my professor sat me down and questioned what I wanted to do with myself. I told him I was pursuing an Art degree, wanting to go into the video game field. He said, after looking at my portfolio "That is quite the bold choice. Are you 100% sure this is what you want to do?". He was questioning my ability. It hurt so bad, I literally started bawling. It didn't help that I had to meet him at his house, only a few days after the semester ended to finalize my grade.

Let me tell you: The guy's an artistic genius. He's travled to Italy and studied there for months on end, constantly leaving his duties as a professor to go on sabatical and continue his passion for painting and drawing. You could seriously scribble on a page and he could turn it into something beautiful (believe me, he's done it before). Not to mention that while I was being critiqued in his home, he had all of his best paintings adorning the walls of each room. He Is INTIMIDATING. He's a very nice, straightforward guy who never let anyone get in the way of his passion for painting. I admire that greatly. Which is why I feel so intimidated around him.

Anyway, this was when I was living with my boyfriend, making $8 an hour with 6-12 hours a week (awful, I know) and trying to support myself. I couldn't exactly put school as my #1 priority when I had to worry about what would be for dinner that night. (I have since moved home, and couldn't have thought of a better thing for me at the time) I explained all this to him and he suggested "Move home. Find another job. Find another major. You may love art, but you're obviously able to let things overpower your love for it. We need more mathematicians and scientists in the world, and with your love of art, I know you can appreciate either of them," It was really hard to take, but I do appreciate what he said.

I cried the rest of that day and the next few following days. Since then, I haven't had the guts to pick up a pencil and start drawing all these ideas that come to me so easily. I am discouraged from being creative, but am always coming up with ideas. Artists block = MAJOR.

Another leading cause to this is the fact that I had my wisdom teeth pulled out a couple weeks ago, and now I found out yesterday that I have a form of a staph infection. Yippee! Just what I wanted! So I've had a physical block on being able to do anything. Try as I might, my creative juices just aren't flowin' as well as I'd like them to.

I have since returned to dA to be inspired, hopefully I'll come across an old Fave or something new and want to make stuff again.

Regardless if I get my creative block removed or not, I'm back and I'm ready to find new stuff to look at in awe! WOO! Expect loads of comments and stuff from me. 'Cause that's what I do best.